Hi Buck-
I just had to create a myspace account to contact you after stumbling onto you on the Internet. I know you're a busy man but would love to hear from you if and when you get a spare minute.

I'm in my mid 40's and am just now starting to make the puzzle pieces fit together regarding my gender ID. On the outside, I'm a somewhat androgynous, attractive, full-breasted but willowy woman with a very large, orgasmic clit. I've never felt particularly feminine but socialization, powerful force that it is, taught me to act convincingly feminine so nobody (including myself, until a couple years ago) suspects. Finally, I'm realizing that I'm a gay man trapped in a woman's body.
The reason I'm so happy to have found out about you is that you're the first ftm who, like me, doesn't have any interest in surgically altering your genitals, and for basically the same reasons; i.e. aesthetic results and risk of loss of function/sensation. I'm not much of a porn watcher, but when I came upon a sample clip of you masturbating, I so immediately related to your self-image that I've jacked off 3 times and am still throbbing. It's the first time I've ever had any kind of affirmation of the way I think of myself, and your being so at peace with your own beautiful body is like a drink of cool water after a lifetime in the desert. Thank you.
I have a couple of questions, if you have time...

First, I read that you take testosterone. Besides the obvious secondary sex characteristics (voice, musculature, body hair, etc.), how has it affected you - particularly your clitoris? It looks very nice, but mine appears already similar in size to yours and I was wondering if I could expect/hope for further growth. Also, has it heightened sensation and desire?
Second, I'm curious about your vagina - you seem to enjoy penetration; that is, it seems to give you genuine stimulation. Is that something you truly enjoy and crave, or do you pursue penetration to fulfill others' desires and fantasies? I wonder whether I'm unique in that I've never particularly craved penetration. My sexuality is definitely driven by what I call my girlpenis, which I prefer to thrust to orgasm, whether by jacking, humping, having sucked, or some kind of simulated insertion. (I also wish to heck I could pee with it!) Do you feel similarly about your pussy?
Third, and on a related topic, I was wondering where you came across that dildo that has the suction cup on the base, which you seem to attach to your clit when you are fucking. Does it enable you to fuck to orgasm? That is my dearest wish - to be able to cum by fucking another man.

In any case, keep up the good work. I can't tell you how it feels to see another person who feels so much the same way I do and who can make that point of view with such positive energy in such a visually articulate manner. Thanks again -

On a somewhat different note, I just wanted to thank you again for
being so out with who and what you are. I bet it's helped a lot of
guys. I know it's helped me. I'm in that scary time right now of
trying to clue in all of the members of my rather large family before
I start T for the first time. I've been following what you're doing
for the last few months, and the way you deal with your body has
really helped *me* deal with *my* dysphoria. It's so good to see
someone who hasn't gotten genital surgery done, who is proud of their
body, who really enjoys homself with what he's got. It's helped me a
lot in coping with my own fear, uncertainty, and shame. Maybe I'd
rather have been born with a dick, sure, but your example has shown me
that it's not only okay, it's *great* to enjoy and like what I have,
and that having it doesn't mean I'm a girl. So, thanks a lot, man.
Thanks for showing me that I don't have to hate myself to be the man I
wanna be.K

Subject: You rock
I loved You on Howard. You and a strapon would be so hot.